Today was not a good day. I think it’s important to share these thoughts and feelings. Not every day is a great day and especially when you are approaching a big challenge or adventure in your life, these days can come around.
Sitting in my room, I received the call about my final payment for my big Kilmanjaro trip in September. I knew the day would come, but not so fast. The reality of everything I still have to do hit me hard.
Financially not in the best position, the big $$ sum to be paid this week came as a shock and hit me hard. I of course got the money together and paid but the stress of the next few months and getting everything ready was now upon me.
Questions raced through my mind relating to all aspects of the climb, there are so many challenging elements to this adventure- and climbing the mountain is really just one small part.
- What if I don’t train enough?
- What if I have no money when I get there
- Why won’t people sponsor me?
- Am I being selfish doing this challenge?
- Who is this for, me? Grandpa? Alzheimer’s? My stubborn pig headed pride?
- What if I let down the people who sponsored me?
- How do I get everything ready in time for this challenge?
- Why Do I put myself up for these sorts of things? Why must I always be challenging and pushing?
- When will I get to relax again?
- When will my mind be free?
Full on and heavy day! I was lucky to have a good support team around me including my parents, people from the Alzheimer’s team, people from the Inspired Adventures group and some close friends who have been watching me go through this process.
I know in the end I will make it. I have to! And I know it will all be worth it, but on days like today. It’s hard.
They don’t call it a CHALLENGE for nothing!
I will be taking on my biggest Adventure yet, Climbing Kilimanjaro for Alzheimer’s Australia NSW! I will Climb Kilimanjaro in honour of my Grandpa who passed away from Alzheimer’s in 2008. I was in Africa when I found out and I said at the time I would one day do this for him, in his memory! We are raising money for Alzheimer’s Australia NSW to raise awareness and the necessary funds for prevention of the disease that affects so many. Dementia is the third leading cause of death in Australia, after heart disease and stroke. We must prevent and find a cure as it’s not a normal part of aging, and does affect 100,000’s of Australians.
Help me reach my $10.000 target by donating to my online fundraising page:
KILI COUNTDOWN – 62 Days to go